Articles Worth Reading: Grieving the Old You

I'm feeling the need to post a little more as we move into the holiday season, which can be really tough for those of us who mourn the loss of loved ones at this time of year....

But one overlooked aspect of grief is mourning the loss of the person that we used to be.  This has become evident to me especially in recent days.  Do you remember the kind of person you were before your loss?  Did you have a different attitude towards life?  Did you have more faith and/or confidence?  Did you have interests or hobbies that no longer resonate with you?  

What you're feeling is actually quite common.  Shelby Forsythia, who works as a writer, podcast host, and Intuitive Grief Guide, authored a 2021 article:  "How to Grieve the Person You Used to Be". She begins by stating: "When someone we love dies, a part of us dies as well. While society has set practices and rituals for people who die, we rarely get an opportunity to honor, grieve, and release the person that we used to be and the life that we used to live."

Forsythia discusses the importance of self-compassion, as well as the importance of avoiding the tendency to either sanctify or vilify the kind of person we used to be.  I really like her ideas on creating new rituals for ourselves in the midst of our grief and loss.  One particular suggestion she makes that I really like is taking an "identity inventory": 

"Pick up a few flat stones outside or purchase a bag of river rocks from a craft store. With a permanent marker or paint pen, write your name on one of the rocks, to represent your old self, and on the others, write all the intangible things you’re grieving. These can be things like 'faith,' 'trust in myself,' 'creativity,' 'the belief that the good guys always win,' and so on. When you’re done, bury your 'old self' along with your 'losses'....

 

Demystifying Dying: Julie McFadden, Hospice Nurse

Julie McFadden has been a registered nurse for over 16 years.  She worked in hospital ICUs before transferring over to Hospice and Palliative Care. This past June, she released a highly-acclaimed book: "Nothing to Fear: Demystifying Death to Live More Fully".  She also has a YouTube channel where she's already made hundreds of videos.  

Julie is not afraid to get into the nitty-gritty details about death and dying that can be so emotionally difficult for so many of us.  While being both matter-of-fact and gentle at the same time, she talks about the "death rattle" and other symptoms that tend to emerge in the last 24 hours of a person's life.  She explains why so many patients are dehydrated at the end of their lives -- and why that's actually a good thing.

In another one of her videos, she explains why so many of us can be deeply upset when we see our loved ones pass with their mouths hanging open -- we believe that they're in agony or suffering while they're dying.  But Julie explains that that's not really the case at all -- it takes a lot of muscles to actually hold our mouths closed.  When we see others dying with their mouths open, it's a sign that our physical bodies are actually relaxing.  Julie sums it up succinctly:  "Our bodies are born knowing how to die."  

Some of Julie's videos show actual patients that are actively in the dying process, which may be difficult to watch for more sensitive viewers.  Following is a link to one of her videos which might be more comforting for all viewers: "Why You Shouldn't Be Afraid of Death and Dying":